Well I left the RE's office feeling like a total fool to the point where I cried a little on the way home. You see, I went in for blood work on the 4th, but since they close at 9am on holidays and weekends, my blood was sent to the Rockville office where they're open all the time. A nurse from Rockville called me to tell me my numbers had more than doubled this time and were 948. She said that the doctor on call asked that I call my regular office and get an appointment for an ultra sound "early next week". So it was Friday, early next week means the weekend passes and it's the next week right? Well I thought it was early but I did what they said. Only to get to the office this morning and for my RE to ask why I came in so early. UGH!
I explained and he said "OK" and then warned us that we might not see that much because I am only 5 weeks today and they don't normally do an ultra sound until 6 weeks. They started the ultra sound and pointed out that I didn't empty my bladder before hand, well I did! I had gone less than 30 minutes prior! But he said I have to pee more and to not let my bladder stretch and go as soon as I feel the urge.... then they continued and saw 2 large cysts. Probably the two 19mm follies I had prior to ovulation. They were so large on the screen, I couldn't believe it. Dr. Mottla even asked if I had bloating or discomfort because they were so large. But I don't, which is a good thing, and they'll disperse on their own. Finally we saw the little embryo. It was this black spot on the screen about the size of a quarter. Dr. Mottla said, "Yep, that's a pregnancy spot". We chuckled. He said I'm right were I should be... then said to the ultra sound tech, "wait, go back". And we got a clear shot of the yolk sac. He was pretty impressed and wasn't thinking we'd see that at all with this visit.
So, all is good and I will go back on NEXT Monday for my regularly scheduled ultra sound. By then we should be able to see the fetal pole and possibly a heartbeat.
Even though I am excited and was really happy to see my little "pregnancy spot", my heart is still really guarded. I really can't wait to not feel this timid, scared feeling. I need to embrace that I am pregnant... and I know I'll get there!