Thursday, December 31, 2009

Goodbye 2009

There is so much to be said about 2009, however I just don't have the time to put it all into words and get it posted before 2009 ends! I still haven't even done my Christmas post! Oh well. Instead to said goodbye to 2009, I'll leave you with a Year in Review Meme... enjoy and Happy New Year!

(Sorry for the formatting... having blogger issues, will fix at a later date, probably "next year".)

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?

Taken care of a child. Not just a child, but my child. A beautiful baby boy that was born 12 weeks prematurely and came home in February of 2009.

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I went back and looked at the questions from last years meme. My New Year’s resolution was to take better care of myself to feel better about myself and to wear make up if I left the house other than for work. I did ok with these. I didn’t exercise or diet but I tried to make myself feel better about who I am now. I wore make up a lot more in 2009 but not every time I left the house.

This year’s resolution is not unlike many other people’s resolutions year in and out. I want to loose weight. What I struggled with last year with feeling better about myself was that I am hung up on my weight gain over the past few years. Fertility drugs and pregnancy are no longer an excuse, and I don’t want to be one of those women that say I haven’t lost the “baby weight” yet when my son is 4!

This year, starting January 11th (first week after Aidan’s surgery) things are changing. I need to make a plan, stick with it and be happy with the results. I told Chris last night, no more cookies or junk at 8:30 or 9:00 at night, no more junk food cabinet, no more eating like crap and complaining how my clothes fit. Chris agreed that if we change our eating habits a little bit and just move, we’ll loose weight. I said if we just moved we probably would, but eating better is in the cards too.

So here’s my New Year’s Resolution list:
1. I’m going to start running. I know, I know, I’ve said it before. But this time I mean it. I want to be a runner.

2. Diet! Cut back on junk food and increase greens, whole grains and organics. Maybe it's silly but I'd like to loose 50 lbs.

3. Look good. I’m going to continue to try to make an effort on what I wear and how I appear. Looking good on the outside makes you feel good on the inside.

4. Work harder on my spirituality. I found “faith” when I started reading about Buddhism. I want to continue my reading/learning/understanding of this “life style”, as I do not believe Buddhism to be a religion but a way of life.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

Most people close to me gave birth in 2007 or 2008, however a very good blogger friend gave birth to her beautiful daughter, Marina on September 18th. Lindsey and Greg had a long journey as well to their family. I’ve followed Lindsey’s blog through cooking adventures, house updates, organic cooking, and was so excited when it moved onto a pregnancy blog. I followed through doctor’s appointments, ultra sounds and cried when she told Marina’s birth story. And now I check in on her daily to see if she’s updated and posted any new pictures of that sweet baby girl!

4. Did anyone close to you die?

Some one very dear to my heart passed away this year. I have chills running up and down my spine as I even think about it to type about it. My dear friend Kelly, who we met in the NICU lost her son Trevor. Our lives were changed by Trevor’s arrival and certainly by his departure. He was only 9 months old and died on September 3rd. He will never be forgotten.

5. What countries did you visit?

I stayed put this year. Our big travels consisted of Massachusetts and Maine, and I wouldn’t have had it any other way.

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?

Motivation and time to exercise and more time with family and friends. Life is way too short and I want to be healthy and happy and be close to those I love.

7. What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

February 18 – The day Aidan came home from the NICU.
September 3 – The day the world lost Trevor James.
December 14 – Aidan’s 1st birthday

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Managing to take care of a preemie baby in his first year of life while maintaining a household and a full time job. No day care, no nanny. That my friends, is a HUGE achievement!

9. What was your biggest failure?

I really wish I read to Aidan more. Time passes too quickly and before you know it the day is over. I hate that Aidan can’t point to different things in books yet and I feel that is my fault.
I also feel that I don’t spend my time with my husband as quality time. Often it’s vegging out on the couch and we’re in the same room together, but that is it. I felt too busy and too tired to work on our relationship. I wish that wasn’t so.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Nope, minor colds here and there. Actually I had more colds this year than I’ve had in like 5 years. Every time Aidan seemed to have a little sniffle I got a full blown cold.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

I’m sure there is something better, but all I can think of is the “Little People” train/lego set for Aidan. We got it for him for Christmas and it is his favorite toy. I love watching him pull all the lego blocks out of the train, and put them back. He also puts other things like his paci in there, and takes it out. He’s so cute playing and entertaining himself.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

My husband. He has been very supportive and has always been a good man who has stood by my side and stuck up for me if need be. But this year he did something that took me by a little surprise and made me very proud to be his wife.

There was one instance that may sound little and minor but it really means a lot to me. On October 21st this year Chris and I attended the March of Dimes Chef’s Auction Benefit. I really wasn’t sure if he was going because he wanted to or because I wanted to. But when we got there, we walked in and on a huge projection screen were photos of our son. I had sent them in to be apart of the benefit. Chris was a very proud Dad that evening and very happy that our son is healthy because of the help and research funded by the MOD. I think I could have maxed out every credit card and drained the bank account on anything I wanted that night and Chris would have just said “It’s for a good cause”. He even wore a purple tie to work on Prematurity Awareness Day (Nov. 17th) and both of us have decided we want to be more active with the March of Dimes and helping other families of premature babies.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

I don’t tend to dwell on actions of others, and I am not in any position to judge them for their actions. I’m sure people may have upset me but I’m over it if they did. If you focus on the good, good will surround you, if you focus on the bad, the bad will over come you.

14. Where did most of your money go?

UGH! Most of my money tends to be pissed away at little things. I hate that! I need to fix that! Maybe I’ll add that to my New Year’s resolution list. However, large sums of money go towards the mortgage, COBRA payments for Aidan and I bought myself 3 new teeth this year.

I had finally lost my last baby tooth. It was one of the bottom canines. I have no adult canines on the bottom… not even way down in the jaw, they just don’t exist. That’s why I still had a baby one, there was never an adult one to push out the baby one. Well needless to say it finally left, and there was a gap. I do not wish to look like a toothless redneck! I had a bridge built which basically consists of caps on the two teeth on either side of the missing canine and a bridge tooth between them. It costs a pretty penny but was much cheaper than what the orthodontist wanted (2+ years of braces and 2 implants in replace of the missing canines.

15. What did you get really excited about?

Of course Aidan coming home. But I was super excited to plan his first birthday party. It was so much fun! I think I started planning in like July! See the post below for a recap of the party!

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?

I’m not really sure. Probably any Lady Gaga or Black Eyed Peas song will. Aidan really liked Let’s Dance and Boom Boom Pow. He’d kick and dance. Was a lot of fun so we played both song a lot!

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

Happier or sadder? Happier. I was so excited to see my son come into the world, but being 12 weeks earlier than expect I was scared out of my mind. Lot’s of tears were shed in December 2008 and January 2009!

Thinner or fatter? UGH, I hate to think about this. I’m pretty sure I looked fatter because I had a big ol’ preggo belly for the first half of December, but I lost quite a bit of weight right after giving birth. Unfortunately I probably weigh about the same though. YUCK! Maybe less, but I don’t dare to get on the scales.

Richer or poorer? Poorer. Only because last Christmas was really low key as Aidan’s arrival was most important. This year we kinda over did it with Christmas and then we had Aidan’s birthday party… yeah, we’re pretty broke right now.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

I wish we saw our family more. I really wish they got to see Aidan more in his first year. And I really wish I read to Aidan more.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Eating. HA!

20. How did you spend Christmas?

On December 12th we had Aidan’s first birthday party, and since everyone was here for that (grandparents and aunts and friends) we had a family Christmas on December 13th. On Christmas Eve I made a fabulous dinner for Chris and I which consisted of duck, honey glazed carrots and asparagus. Christmas day was spent with our little family of 3. We opened gifts, had breakfast, played with our gifts, had a nice dinner and relaxed.

21. Did you fall in love in 2009?

Over and over again with my son and my husband. Every day brings something new and every day brings another reason to love both of them.

22. What was your favorite TV program?

Definitely Glee. By far the best show on TV this past year! You know, got a thing for that whole dramatic arts stuff.

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

I don’t hate.

24. What was the best book you read?

My reading consists of children’s books now. I realy like Clap Hands by Helen Oxenburg, the babies in the book are really cute!

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?

I made a video of Aidan’s first year and set it to music. The songs on it are old really but I really loved finding songs that expressed how I feel about my son. The songs on the video include With Arms Wide Open by Creed, Beautiful Boy by John Lennon, Your Song by Elton John and You’ve Got a Friend by James Taylor. I re-discovered these songs this year and they are beautiful!

26. What did you want and get?

I wanted to be able to keep my job and not put my son in daycare. I got exactly that! I work from home 2 or 3 days a week and bring Aidan to the office the other days.

27. What did you want and not get?

I’d rather just be a stay at home mom… but without my paycheck, we would not be owning our house.

28. What was your favorite film of this year?

Geesh, my husband and I love movies, but just didn’t get to see many this year. We did recently go see Avatar which was amazing and I’m kinda kicking myself for not finding out we could have seen it in Imax 3D.. ce la vie. (I’m actually running down a list of movies that came out in 2009 to refresh my memory of the best ones.) Ok – so I don’t really feel that I missed too much however, Food, Inc., Paranormal Activity and District 9 are on my to do list! OH – but this year we watched Taking Chance. It’s an HBO movie that was a 2009 Sundance Film Festival Selection. It was amazing… go find a copy and watch it tonight… but make sure you have tissues in stock too! About half way through the movie I actually sat up from laying on the couch because I was crying so hard I couldn’t breath and said “This movie SUCKS! But it’s so good!”.

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 32 in October of 2009. What did I do? OH! Our friends Lacey and Zac joined us (me, Chris and Aidan) at General Tanukis. We had a fabulous dinner where I introduced everyone to the world of cooked sushi! We had unagi nageri for me (eel on the bed of rice), a coconut shrimp California roll and a tempura asparagus California roll. We then had an amazing Pacific themed dinner and crème brulee for dessert. It was good company, good food and good times!

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

More family time and less worry over money and little things.

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?

It doesn’t matter what trends I try, or what I wear, I’m a prep. But a casual prep. Give me classic jeans and match it with either a cute T, a button shirt or a sweater and pair up with a cute pair of shoes and I’m good to go!

32. What kept you sane?

My husband. He keeps me in check and reminds me of what’s important in life.

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

I guess I’m pretty impressed with the entire Glee cast and mostly “Will” or Mathew Morrison. I saw him the other night performing at the Kennedy Center Honors. I said to Chris, “Wow! The Glee cast really has talent!” They are stage performers first and TV stars second. I always hold actors that perform on a stage a little higher than film actors.

34. What political issue stirred you the most?

I hate the battle with same sex marriages. I don’t think it should matter. If Joe and Bob get married, or Jane and Sue get married, how does that effect my life? It doesn’t, and it won’t effect the biggots in the world either!

Also I’m scared to death about this health care reform stuff. Just tell me what’s happening and be done with it! Please don’t screw this country up any more than it already is with health care!

35. Who did you miss?

My family. Have a baby makes you realize how truly important family is. Almost every day I wished my mom or other family members were closer to witness all the changes that Aidan was/is making. And many times I would have loved to have family closer to help me a little. There were many days when I would have loved someone to come visit and even watch Aidan sleep or play while I took a shower that lasted more than 3 minutes.

36. Who was the best new person you met?

I met some really great people at the March of Dimes benefit. I’m friends with them on Facebook and I swear we’re going to get together again soon! Again, that time thing.

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.

Quite simple, life is too short!

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

I should really spend a few days thinking about this one, but here is my quick answer. Not only is it for my son but for the wonderful man I married as well. I’m looking forward to 2010 and sharing so many more wonderful memories with both of my men!

At last, my love has come along

My lonely days are over

And life is like a song

Oh, yeah, at last

The skies above are blue

My heart was wrapped up in clovers

The night I looked at you

I found a dream that I could speak to

A dream that I can call my own

I found a thrill to rest my cheek to

A thrill that I have never known

Oh, yeah when you smile, you smile

Oh, and then the spell was cast

And here we are in heaven

For you are mine

At last

At Last by Etta James

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